Saturday, April 18, 2009

Blowing Candles

Last Saturday was very special. It was Nanay's 77th. It was celebrated in my mom's province, IloIlo. The Jover's and Cabalfin's put up this little get-together, reunion, or whatever you want to call it. I can't consider it little though. Ang laki ng pamilya namin! Wala pa dun ang mga Santiago at Roxas. :))

Nanay and Tatay, my aunts, and uncles, and cousins are very welcoming. The heat was dehydrating. The road was exhausting! The foods we're yummy, and the taste was something new. There we're balloons, there we're cakes. But to also see my name on those was a surprise to me. I was totally clueless that we we're having a double celebration. It was a good day, indeed! Thank you, mom.

April 18, 2009: A day I am not looking forward to.

Today's different. Empty. Like someone dug a big hole out of me. I feel odd to not have or feel any bit of excitement flowing in my nerves. It is sad to not go out with my friends, get drunk, and fill up my lungs with smoke. Bad.

04.18.08 Oh how I miss Choko's not-so-convincing powers with the bouncer of Decades. Also the I'm-sorry-Coke-lang-ang-pede-niyong-inumin when we decided to just celebrate Jopok's and my birthday at Off The Grill. And Totoy wildin' out when we arrived at Guilly's. How would I forget the Turkish guy I danced with, Whine Up playing on the dance floor... :)) Everyone I'm with that night 'til morning was very happy that made Anna declared that it was the Party Of The Year. Hahaha!

And this year, maybe I just have to sit here, and continue blabbing about the past.
Stuck to our we used to...

Dad, I'm tumbling down. But I will try to make this kind and clear... Don't ask me what I want for my special day. 'Cause I don't want boxes wrapped in strings, and desire, and love, and empty things. Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days. I wish you would understand, I really miss you. Forgive me.

Happy Birthday Jopok
and Happy 17th to me.

8 comments:

  1. "Anna declared that it was the Party Of The Year. Hahaha!"
    -that's me babe :)))

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  2. "April 18, 2009: A day I am not looking forward to."

    HAHAHHA sorry naman :))

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  3. Hahaha oh well, it's a good thing Momay and Lucelle came over. Then Ryza and company was able to make it before April 18 ends. It was sad though!!! Wala ka! :((

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  4. alam ko naman na,,ako ang VIP ehhh..:))

    nandun lang naman ako ehh,,nakakalat sa kanto :))

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  5. Hahaha feeling mo! Hindi na kita panghihinayangan sa susunod. Wuhahaha pede ba 'yun? Lagi nga kita hinahanap eh? :)))

    Oo alam ko, nakatambay, nagkalat kalat... sa labas ng bahay ni ANO. :)) Just like what you've said in your Multiply location. :)) Hah! Huli ka! Hahahaha!

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  6. HAHHAHAH i knew it :)))

    shhh "hush" lang :)) no one knows it :)))

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  7. Hahaha sabi na eh! Feeling talaga. :))) I was just testing you. Feeling! :)))

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